ten nuggets of wisdom to live by..

1. be kind to yourself
2. looking good is feeling good inside
3. you're not out to please everybody
4. expect little but do your best and dream big
5. smiling is healthy :)
6. laugh you heart out!
7. live light and right and keep it simple
8. failure is a good starting point
9.you are blessed, dont forget to say thanks!
10. most importantly, pray...God answers.

blessed day!

fun fun saturday

its rest day-- sabbath day!... and as always, i had a wonderful sabbath day, i woke up so early to prepare for church and to prepare my nieces -- darah 13, yanah 10, jamie 10 and katie 5, -- they are going to sing on sabbath school-- all were excited and a little nervous... it turned out perfectly well, with good comments especially cutie katie who sings outloud but only the last few words of each line hahaha but it was cute coz she's still on rhythm :) the big ones will be on the church choir officially... i guess they really like their number coz they were invited right away... the choir's name?-- QYouth! :) really cute! :)
at sabbath school lesson, i found the discussion really great, exciting and i learned so much but still hanged with few really hard questions on my mind... who wouln't? its FAITH we are talking about... but then as we go on with our lesson... it helped me so much on how would i strenghten with my faith--- and one of my fave bible verse, hebrew 11:1 whom i cling on so many times of my "troubled" life, was once again mentioned and discussed thoroughly, which was great.
the sermon was incredible... it was about how people now adays embraced the worldly life and its results in our life.... some of the details really 'punch' me on my stomach hahaha but then again i never stop holding on to God in everything that i do... i'd like to believe that in everything that i do--its always been about Him which feels great actually, really great! Life here on earth is pretty much difficult but knowing that we're with Him, having that amazing faith... it reminds us that everything's just gonna be alright! :)
Adventist youth! --the Message from Bon M. was great! :) and we have a ticket already for upcoming The Heritage Concert in Manila! i cant wait...Yehey!
Thank you God for the wonderful Sabbath! :)

deep breath...

sometimes people wouldn't understand 

or should i say that...

they just  wouldn't want to really understand!

although they keep saying that they knew--

that obviously you have all the good and best intentions for them...

they just won't listen!

but instead,

keepin in their mind -- that you are being transformed,

to someone that you are not!... sigh :(

like becoming superb disrespectful and a liar!--- oooh it hurts too much!

okay i admit im being disrespectful at times--  just so that i could be heard!

but im not a liar! 

im not anymore the little girl who keeps saying yes...yes..yes...

i can already tell you if you're doing things right or not!

im not saying im perfect or im good at everything

but i just know the difference between the two now..

and yeah, i hate myself "correcting" you-- as you termed it.. but because i care for you..

i see the goodness in your heart and i just wanted you to try and really let it out!

can't you not get mad even for a day?

its piercingly painful seeing that you never live a day that you dont get mad... like literally--

even to the smallest and simplest details there is...

Gosh its killing me knowing this things... seeing this things every time we're together..

and with that i just cant stay still and watch you...

deep breath...

(an open letter for an older sib!)

a "buzz!" one day...

BUZZ!!!!
rhiyokiebear_md: hi
rhiyokiebear_md: musta?
rhiyokiebear_md: ----?
rhiyokiebear_md: musta baby?
------: hi te yok. wait lang ha,may tapusin lang ako
rhiyokiebear_md: yeah sure okay... bye

after 5 minutes

------: te yok im back
------: busy ka?
rhiyokiebear_md: no
rhiyokiebear_md: blogging..hehe tapos na
------: te yok maglilitanya na naman ako sau
------: hehe. bear with me hehe
rhiyokiebear_md: lalim nman ha
------: hehe
rhiyokiebear_md: okay lng
rhiyokiebear_md: why?
------: te yok i think im preggy
rhiyokiebear_md: whats wrong?
rhiyokiebear_md: wow!
------: pero d un ang prob ko tlg
rhiyokiebear_md: lets celebrate!
rhiyokiebear_md: anu?

------: dami ko kc prob, patong patong na parang d na ko nakaahon sa mga prob.
rhiyokiebear_md: ey dont say that...
------: ang sama ko pero parang d na gaya ng dati ung faith ko ang sama ko noh, im trying my best na makabalik ung dating faith ko
rhiyokiebear_md: for a start what do u hev in mind b?
rhiyokiebear_md: oh
------: kc ang prob saken pati mga prob ng family ko affected ako, xempre naturalk lang un db
rhiyokiebear_md: hey... wag ka patalo...
rhiyokiebear_md: yep
------: kc cla mama te yok andun na nga lang cla sa US ganun parin ang buhay.
------: tapos ganun pa nangyari kay papa.
------: d ko alam kung wat ang purpose d ko alam
------: dati kung magsabi ako parang its easy na may purpose c GOd, i tot malakas na ung faith ko, un pala hindi
rhiyokiebear_md: its a process an...di nman porket dun na cila expected na kaagad eh okay ang lahat ...dami pagsubok dating yan.. pero kailangan maging strong lng kasi after ng lhat bibigay ni God ang makapagpapasaya s lhat
------: tapos ngaun lahat ng prob na naiwan d2 sa pinas ako namumublema.
------: pati mag aalaga kay mamang, d naman ako nagcocomplain kay mamang pero minsan bakit kelangan na ako pa.
rhiyokiebear_md: yayay! hirap talaga pla ann.. pero never give up please
------: pati ung yaya ng papa nila vin stress ko pa. kami pa nila vin naiwan d2
rhiyokiebear_md: ayyyyy... i know naiintindihan kita


rhiyokiebear_md: hayyyyy ann mahirap yan...stressful ang paligid kung buntis ka man...tapos work k pa
------: oo nga te yok eh
rhiyokiebear_md: kailangan may gawin talga kayo dyan
rhiyokiebear_md: sa prob n yan
------: hay basta ang sama ko pero tlgng wala ako amor sa kanya, nakikisama langh ako
rhiyokiebear_md: kasi ikaw pinakaaffected dyan eh

------: hay te yok ang sama ko noh
rhiyokiebear_md: yayay----- ....may reason k nman eh
rhiyokiebear_md: pero
rhiyokiebear_md: still
------: may k parin ako haha
rhiyokiebear_md: ----- u need to be patient pa...more and more...kung kaya pa isagad....isagad mo na
rhiyokiebear_md: hahaha maybe its easy for me to say kasi wala ako dyan s situation mo
------: naku sa lagay ko na to sobrang sagad na
------: maxado ako nasstress
rhiyokiebear_md: oo nga....
------: bakit ako pa?


rhiyokiebear_md: lalo mo lang pinabibigat loob mo eh
------: lage ko naiisip un te yok
rhiyokiebear_md: ako din
rhiyokiebear_md: wag ----
------: alam mo nung buntis ako pinagpray ko na sana maging ok kami
------: ngaung ok kami ewan ko te yok kakapraning
rhiyokiebear_md: lalo mo lng binibigyan ng burden ang sarili mo...pinabibigat mo
------: minsan sana dream to, hirap harapin ang reality na ganto ang naging buhay ko
rhiyokiebear_md: after all this prob...etong point na ito ng life mo...marerealize mo din na buti nlng sya napangasawa mo...
rhiyokiebear_md: kasi ---- this is only temporary
------: alam mo te yok sana nga maging ok na kami soon kc parang bibigay ako
rhiyokiebear_md: wag ka ngang maging super weak
rhiyokiebear_md: labanan mo yan lhat
------: pag nakakakita ako ng family na masaya nmaprapraning ako bakit gan2
rhiyokiebear_md: heyyy dont say that
------: totoo un te yok
rhiyokiebear_md: wag kang bibigay...di pwede...wawa nman baby
rhiyokiebear_md: and yang new baby
------: oo nga te yok
------: naku ewan ko te yok
------: ayaw ko quit job ko dahil dun nalang ako nakakawala, tsaka dun ko nafifil self worth ko
rhiyokiebear_md: ann be strong...as i always say...be strong ...lahat to malalgpasan natin and i think its up to us nalng kung papaka weak tayo...kailangan stay with God para makalabas tayo sa problem na ito ng whole pa din...
------: tama ka te yok, un tlg ngaun ang struggle ko
------: kahit ganto nangyayari im still trying to keep my faith
rhiyokiebear_md: maraming may kailangan sayo...isipin mo nlng...we need u..ur baby need u...
rhiyokiebear_md: tama yan...thats the right thing to do
------: oo nga te yok. thanks a lot te yok ha for listening
rhiyokiebear_md: ----- you know ive been to a dark place din na gusto kong bumigay pero pag naiisip ko n yun....kneel down nlng ako and pray pag di ko alam sasabihin ko ...thank u nlng ako and ask ng help...
------: oo nga te yok. tama ka jan napakahirap tlg te yok pero kakayanin to db
rhiyokiebear_md: maraming times na ganun....pero totoo pag nafi-feel ko weak point ...pray nlng ako kahit anu...madalas di ko alam sabihin pero basta pray ako for others or what basta kausap ko lng sya
rhiyokiebear_md: yes ----....dont give up
------: gagawin ko din yan te yok
rhiyokiebear_md: this too shall pass..............
------: \napakalakas ngb temptation na kumawala sa faith
rhiyokiebear_md: yes ----... yun nlng muna for now
rhiyokiebear_md: habang wala pang ibang way out sa mga prob ...but i guess its the best escape
------: minsan nakokonxenxa, most of the time tlg pero maxado ako nanghina
rhiyokiebear_md: i think God will understand..
rhiyokiebear_md: ti-netest nya nga kasi tayo
rhiyokiebear_md: and whats important is we know na di dapat kumawala s knya
rhiyokiebear_md: diba
rhiyokiebear_md: its okay too become weak at times....just dont give up
------: oo nga te yok. dapat honored tau na tau ang binibigyan ng gantong prob kc he knows na kaya natin . tama b?
rhiyokiebear_md: tama ka dyan ----
rhiyokiebear_md: its all coming back na ----
rhiyokiebear_md: tama yan....ikaw yan ....tayo yang attitude na yan..an-an: huhu. pag pray mo ko te yok
-----: dumadating kc ung tym na parang dead end na na parang wala na noh
rhiyokiebear_md: yeah ....parang ganun ...pero ann....lahat yan kaya natin
rhiyokiebear_md: lagi nman kita pag pray
-----: tnx te yok for the enlightenment
rhiyokiebear_md: pero ill do more extra time this time
rhiyokiebear_md: heheh
-----: tnx tlg te yok. kahit ive been so bad sau youre still there for me always
rhiyokiebear_md: stay still ---... youre a strong servant ...have faith with your master...alam nya gagawin nya syo ha
-----: gaya nga ng sabi ni mama blessing ang magkarun ng friends na gaya mo
rhiyokiebear_md: nonsense
rhiyokiebear_md: hehe
rhiyokiebear_md: ikaw din blessing k sakin noon pa hehe
rhiyokiebear_md: ---- dont give up okay....unti unti maaayos din yan maniwala ka lang
-----: hmp! nonsense hehe
-----: ok te yok.
rhiyokiebear_md: okay rest kna ba?
rhiyokiebear_md: pasok k b tom?
-----: wala na ko pasok. sa monday na ulit
rhiyokiebear_md: oh...okay
rhiyokiebear_md: balitaan mo ko sa condition mo ha
-----: te yok sana magkarun ulit ng faith na ung parang kahit ano prob eh wala lang kc i know na jan lang c God
-----: oo cge. thanks a lot te yok. gabi na pala
-----: hehe
rhiyokiebear_md: pag-ppray natin yan ann...
rhiyokiebear_md: i wont sleep yet
-----: ok. thanks te yok ha. lav yah
rhiyokiebear_md: maya mya pa
rhiyokiebear_md: lav u too
rhiyokiebear_md: and baby c too
rhiyokiebear_md:
-----: patulugin ko lang baby gusto na nya dudong hehe
rhiyokiebear_md: okay mommy
rhiyokiebear_md: kisses from me to both of u mwah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

status :)

i'll be blogging again... and i thought of giving the details of my present status for a start!


status: "life after passing the medical board exam"


thankful!--- grabe i cant stop thanking PJ -- Papa Jesus, for letting me pass... for guiding me before, during and after exams... thank you Lord for believing in me!

Happy?-- sobra! kasi tapos na ang lahat ng paghihirap ng review para sa boards! whew! :) end of pressure, sleepless nights, dry skins, EYE bags, hair fall (yeah:), ---stressful review days! hayyy..

Super Happy! -- kasi, finally i made my parents and sibs really happy... never been so proud! -sabi nila wehehe :) and i love them always..

Sad? -- yes, i felt that too, knowing some of my closest friends didnt make it! :( ---but as i told them ...theres a right time for everything... cry a little, keep studying and pray more! :)

what do i miss?-- starbucks araneta ave! :)... my cafe mocha, green tea w/ hazelnut, my oreo cheese cake, danish, chowking beside it hehehe and the super-bait baristas.... and my supply of sb tissues yayay! :)... miss my daily allowance, yay! lapit na mawala hehe

enjoy? -- yeah my dear frndship-karen told me... i must enjoy my last few weeks of freedom! hehe kasi i will surely miss it when i started training--- huh! il sure do frndship! mwah!


yeah, thats partly how it is after passing the boards, but it only stays on you for about few weeks and then again.... medyo mahirap din pala... yeah they're probably right ---my seniors, residents, teachers --- what they said was true, first few weeks of "cloud 9 feeling" and then came the fact na --whoa! its the real world thats coming...

---- application of residency-- its not so easy pala, especially knowing na wala nang slot sa Hospital na gustong gusto mong pasukan :(

---- completing all the requirements!-- gosh! it took me more than 2 weeks to complete everything... SSS, TIN, S2, PMA, PTR, tons of recommendations TOR etc etc

---- waiting for interviews-- nerve racking indeed! hehe -- i kinda hate interviews eh :(

---- examinations to get in! -- yeah, never ending studies--- which i already accepted as i enter med-school! :)



...but right now, its holiday! and i think this would be my last holiday week! and whoooooohoooo!!! ......im off to the real world! PJ be w/me :)


-xoxo-

stop never

its been a while since i last open my "dreamcather" and really blogged.. when i started this, i have so many things in my mind that i wanted to put in here...yayay! -- but due to soooo many "not so good things" that happened the last few months of my life c",)-- i just couln't find a time!---
i am thinking about deleting it right now--totally!-- coz i thought that i didnt really blogged on this blog! (*wink*) ---but i realized that i did try... if you could only see my drafts!!! -- lol! so now i decided to keep it! yey! :)) and i swear in my dog's grave :) i will blog and put in here all the things that i love.... whether anybody would care or not hehe! meantime... tick tock! its 12:47 am and i need to get up early! :)

see u next blog!

-xoxo-