deep breath...

sometimes people wouldn't understand 

or should i say that...

they just  wouldn't want to really understand!

although they keep saying that they knew--

that obviously you have all the good and best intentions for them...

they just won't listen!

but instead,

keepin in their mind -- that you are being transformed,

to someone that you are not!... sigh :(

like becoming superb disrespectful and a liar!--- oooh it hurts too much!

okay i admit im being disrespectful at times--  just so that i could be heard!

but im not a liar! 

im not anymore the little girl who keeps saying yes...yes..yes...

i can already tell you if you're doing things right or not!

im not saying im perfect or im good at everything

but i just know the difference between the two now..

and yeah, i hate myself "correcting" you-- as you termed it.. but because i care for you..

i see the goodness in your heart and i just wanted you to try and really let it out!

can't you not get mad even for a day?

its piercingly painful seeing that you never live a day that you dont get mad... like literally--

even to the smallest and simplest details there is...

Gosh its killing me knowing this things... seeing this things every time we're together..

and with that i just cant stay still and watch you...

deep breath...

(an open letter for an older sib!)